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Friday, 28 June 2013 04:11
Confession Of The Broken Heart.. ♥
What happened to us now?
It seem legit at once and disappeared without our agreement. Yes, it's about what I'm about to say to you. Might be something you wanna hear from me back then. Not gonna use any sweet words this time or at least gimme a chance to try ! Well where should we begin?
On June 17, that was a date where I started the topsy-turvy where clearly there was no one else I can blamed except myself. This brainless women was in state of mind where she just wanna played and messed around but ended up said YES to a guy where she knew less than a month. Once you misstep your step, it might be difficult for you to turn back time and correct all the mistake you have done. Well that was what I felt now to be honest. At one point I can't believed that I became someone girlfriend's without any intention to do so ! It totally drive me insane and I don't know what should I do, so I cried. At that moment, tears become my best accompanied when I'm out of words. This burden on my shoulder make me made up my mind to told the truth to him. I was scared, but I need to do it for everybody sake ! And I told him. The moment where he said he was fine with it was a happy moment or a joyful of my life. I can't denial that which lead me to tell you as soon as possible ! Yet, the decision had been made, but not been done. We agreed to let go each other but during that time not officially count as break. As day past by, the conflict between us became more complex. Might be I'm the one who complicated the things. The truth hurt aren't they? Fall for a two person's at one time was vicious as for me, at least. This was where my test of level been tested ! What happened next? We broke up officially. Should be a happy ending I'm supposed? But it was beyond my expectation. I fell for him without any solid reasons why ! Don't I look like Imma fucking bitch alive? How was that happened? I fuck myself for being like what I am now ! I screwed it up for a countless times now. Such a jerk I am. She said 'I don't trust people who cheated on me' Well that's kinda a heartbreak for me. What am I suppose to do to gain back your attention and your trust? I know you being insecure right now and it totally not your fault because if I in your situation, I might do the same or even worst. And about him? I try my best to ease him from my mind though I can't lie once in a blue time I thought of him. It hard for me to see you in pain. Yes, I can just enjoy myself throw a party or whatsoever because I'm not the one who in pain. But your emotion vibe into me which leads me to do what you do. At certain point, what I want to do is disappear from people. Travel to a new place and make new friend, earn new positive energy. But I couldn't do that and I don't know why. Let me say this to you, to earn back your trust might take a lifetime. And surely it won't be the same like at the first place. But as for you to know, my heart are belong to you. My love are yours and part of you breath inside of me. This obstacle will not be the last, it might be another wave soon. Since we both know what are we doing now leading us to nowhere. If we could married each other, I'm gonna be the most happiest bride on earth, I swear ! It such a melancholic part of life to know the truth that reality is where we are now. I love you, you are the best-est person alive in my life ! Please let me stay by your side no matter what will happen next in our life. This love is too powerful yet painful. Hold me tight no matter what happen between us soon. Don't let me go easily, cause I breathing hardly now. Lord knows how much we love each other and wanna be together. We are nobody to fight His path of our life. He know what is the best for His mankind. If things are gonna to be happen, it will no matter how we fight for it. Well it terrified me for having that thought. But when the time come, let both of us resignedly accept. But Lord, I'm not strong enough. We both don't ! Give us time to cherish our moment together even the consequences of the heartbreak will be at the top of ache. I love you The truth hurts
Sunday, 9 June 2013 00:43
You're Not Belong To Anyone.. ♥
Stop and look around you
Did it whisper 'you're not belong to anywhere'
Because I sense that
In my solitude
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